Post by danielle on Oct 17, 2015 6:00:09 GMT
Before anything else, I just wanna give a shout out to Kenny for all of his hard work hosting the game. Starting up a new series can be really tough, but I think this season was awesome, and you did a great job hosting. Thanks for all your time and effort!
Secondly, I just want to say thank you to all of y'all out there in juryland, and a few active folks on the prejury. A game's only as good as its cast, and you guys were definitely both classy and skilled. Thanks for being cool.
Now, all of that being said, I'd like to apologize for... well, not being all that awesome. I think if I had any areas in this game which were impressive, it'd be jigsaw puzzles and self-awareness. I'm not going to pretend that I didn't suck at a lot of things, and I'm not going to insult your intelligence by claiming that I was some massive amazing player, because the fact is that I simply wasn't. I entered the game with really high hopes for myself, and then got sideswiped by a really terrible combination of work and real life issues. I'm not expecting any leniency on account of those things, because, let's face it, if they had been THAT big of a deal I'd have pulled myself out of the game. I'm the one who chose to keep playing, and that means that any social absences or weak challenge performances are my fault and nobody else's. For whatever it's worth, I was probably just as frustrated and annoyed with myself as other people were with me, because I couldn't compete anywhere close to the best of my ability, and I hate misrepresenting myself or playing a weak game. I'm sure a lot of you feel that I'm undeserving, and I absolutely agree that you deserve to have those feelings. My poor fragile ego is really not enthused about Kenny telling y'all not to take it easy on us, but I guess I've earned my fair share of criticism.
I guess if I could make any point here, I'd want it to be that I didn't really intend things maliciously, and I did actually make an effort to make moves and play the game, however apparent that may or may not have been. The Majority Rules challenge proved that I had a pretty solid grasp of the game despite how socially inactive I appeared to be at that point, and I was in the loop on a lot more things than people knew. Premerge, I had a decent connection with Dolly and Malcolm, and I was working with Malcolm and Alexis come the merge, and I knew their plan to flip on Fairplay's group looooong before it happened. Of course, I also knew that Malcolm and Alexis were in a perfect swing position to control the entirety of the game, and I wasn't about to just sit back and let them have it that easily. I almost singlehandedly pushed the Alexis boot through, and without that effort the entire rest of the game would have looked different. I also managed to get Malcolm willing to side with me over LJ and Fairplay at final five when they were targeting me, and I made the decision to send Sean home. (Which was actually a really shitty moment, and I feel terrible about it. My reasons for doing it were very complex and I will happily explain them during the question period if anybody so desires).
Were all of those things enough to beat Malcolm? I kinda doubt it, but I do think that they're worth at least considering. My game might have been very, very subtle and incredibly UTR, but it was there.
So, anyway, I look forward to seeing your guys' questions, and I'll do my best to answer them openly and honestly.
Peace!